what and who i am & why

i just want to put this out there...
in case you're wondering...
i grew up like most people i meet, not believing in god/goddess
because of the abuse that was heaped on all of us by the church.

certainly growing up on an indian reservation also contributed to these feelings, we were put through the grinder in the residential school system and now we just oppress ourselves, it's just a fact! (if you want to learn more about residential schools go here http://www.ahf.ca/ )

so anyways i sometimes write about prayer and sign my emails with god bless or some version there of...

i went through a deep spiritual crisis back in 1999 and it prompted me to really take a look at myself from the inside out, what i had been seeking at the time was so-called Native or Indigenous Spirituality, what i had found at the time was sorely lacking in real and substantial help. I was completely lost for a very long time. Then i was given a book by Sylvia Browne (http://www.sylvia.org) and by TESTING and APPLYING the things she talks about my life changed dramatically...

we are all apart of this great beautiful shining being that some call god/goddess and all we need to do is establish a relationship on our terms and invite the beauty and love that they are into our lives and things change...

sometimes dramatically and sometimes slowly!

i'm not trying to convert you in any way and i didn't believe right away, it just grew into a relationship that i based on experience and knowledge and that i rely on now to guide me each day. it took me several years just to say the word god in my own head! but now i'm not afraid to say god or goddess out load, because they have proven time and time again, to me anyways that if you want change just ask for specific intervention and wait for the answers with an open heart and mind...

i'm still skeptical and i require proof and when i ask for it i get it...

if it's just a delusion then i think more of us should be deluded

peace love and bless you in all ways
eric