back to apples

so i'm going back to work at the orchard! Yay it may help me get too the things I really want to do

mmmmmmmmmission

i'm a man on a mission

overloaded

my head feels heavy and full of cotton
my heart feels stuffed and overloaded
i thought i knew where i was headed
now i feel dead-ended
so i just wait and see how the rest of the day unfolds

i believe

i believe in magic
i believe in love
i believe in direct communication
i believe in believing
i believe in you
i believe in me
i believe in being human
i believe in freedom
i believe in god/dess
i believe in honesty

but, i still have a hard time in believing in me
go figure

insight

everything we know we learned from someone else
at some time or other we begin to question what we've learned
it's at that time we look within to find out if it's true
and then we either choose to stay the same or change
it's the circle of life's lessons

it's what i'm committed too
it's a process that has up's and down's
i don't have all my answers yet
and maybe i never will (in this life)
but it's the searching and seeking for those answers that keeps me going
that and the hope that i'll be able to share the little bits
i've found to be true

i'm not perfect and i'm not trying to be
i'm learning each and everyday
and i see myself reflected in you
for we are all interconnected
in this web of life

maybe where i'm at isn't where you want me to be
but i have to honor what i know to be true
in spite of all my defects of character
my imperfections of execution
my struggles within myself

i just never imagined that all of you would be along for the ride
just saying is all

eureka

so i had a soft and quiet
eureka moment
last night
i was re-reading sylvia brownes book on "Prophecy"

and a line stood out from all the rest...

it went something like this;

"the answers you seek come from within you"

i know alot of you have been telling me exactly that

that i am enough

so with gratitude

i thank you for all your support
i hope and pray that you find
blessings, strength and courage from within

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